`Monday, January 10, 2005;__
i'm dead i feel so numb!
Heart break once again! this time not bcos of
anybody in particular but ... -i'll tell u if i want to!-
okay my life ? SUCKS! or do i even noe wad is LIFE?
I dont noe i rather not noe anything than i sufer so much
jus cos i noe all those things! my heart shattered into
millions pieces.. i'm cryin NOW! my tears r jus out
of control! i cant control them! i've realised i mean
NOTHING to u! i'm NOTHING to u! u dun care anymore!
y do u in the first place give me a life! let me suffer in this
black & white world! i feel so miserable! i wish i was not
born! i really hope so! at least i wudnt suffer so much!
i cried the whole night! nobody knows! maybe my bros do!
so wad ? do u give a damn? parents if u mean to make ur
children suffer so much! PLEASE DON'T give them a chance
to be in this world in the first place! cos u'll only make them
suffer! I HATE U ALL!!! i'm cryin inside and nobody knows!
But Me! i just hate to be in this world! in my heart, now is
jus full of hatred! i noe nothin but HATE! i only noe HATE!!
yes all i noe is HATE! my mind of the word HATE! my shoes
i wrote HATE,my body I write HATE, everythin belongs to
me sure there is this word u will see! HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeas i HATE my life! i HATE everything here!
nobody noes how is feels lk to be me!, i wish i was as invisible
as u make me feel! i'm NOTHING!
i wish i could jus SLIT MY WRIST and watch my cares BLEED AWAY!
i hurt so much deeper than ur ever noe! is far too deep!
i cant take it anymore NO MORE! parents, ur've got ur guns to my head!
jus kill me pls!!! i'm worth nothing in ur eyes!!! dun make me feel
the pain anymore cos i cant take it! i've got hurt farrr tooo deeepppp!
i wish i could slit my wrist and watch my cares bleed away!
[[ STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME ! I NEED NOBODY!]]
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 8:23 PM;__
